I'm so incredibly tired. Just like yesterday (when K2 got up at 5:30!). Lately I'll be exhausted (to the point of falling asleep while driving just a short distance) all day and then come evening I suddenly have insomnia. Ugh. Working on making myself get up though so that hopefully I can work backwards on a bedtime.
I went to the PASG group last night simply because I wanted to. I felt like I had something to give. I hadn't been for a couple of weeks and I felt good hearing from one of the sister missionaries how much something I shared a couple weeks ago had helped her. She did a little write-up on it and gave a handout on PTSD. I read through the information on PTSD and realized how so much of my life has likely been run by it. Crazy. I should've gotten help and medicine a long time ago. But the important thing is that I am now and I am feeling freed as I regain mastery and control over my life by seeing it for what it truly is and turning it over to the Lord. I was also reminded at group about the need for gratitude journals so I am goign to work on being more consistent in writing in mine.