Monday, January 19, 2009

jan 19.

Aww... .I did so well for so long.  I've had a hard time getting myself to go to bed lately so I either fall asleep on the couch or am wiped out when I finally climb in bed.  Don't really know what my deal is.

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

jan 14.

-.8 today and -5.0 total
My goal for today is to stick to my diet!

Monday, January 12, 2009

jan 12.

+.4 today.  -5.8 total
Ugh!  Need to do better!  I need to redo my hcg mixture so I wasn't planning to stick to the diet today.  Maybe if I just at least eat wll.  DH and P have an appointment today with an immunologist.  Hopefully we can finally get them some answers.

....ummm.... made cookies with P today.... ate a little way more than my share.  The scale is going to hurt tomorrow.

Sunday, January 11, 2009

jan 11.

188   -6.2 total
Forgot to write yesterday.  Fell asleep on the couch last night so I was pretty out of it when I went to bed.  Blew the diet yet again.  Will do it again today.
Trying to decide whether to take W in to the dr.  He has a ton of little blood vessels on his face and around his eyes from coughing so hard.  It's so sad.
Had a dream last night about my mom.  I was so into it I guess that it took me a while to remember that she's not alive.  Usually those dreams leave me feeling all weird and in a really bad mood the next day, but this one was actually different.  I can't seem to decide how I feel.  I can't even remember exactly what it was about.

Friday, January 9, 2009

week 1 on hcg.

188.8.  Overall loss of about 5 lbs in week 1
Well, life obviously got busy and I've been up late and too tired to write when I go to bed.  I've gotten a lot done and I've even mopped.  I hate mopping so that's a big deal.  I had a rough day yesterday and went to bed mad and depressed and wound up not sleeping well.  My arm was killing me from mopping.  I woke up with a headache because I realized that I had never taken my second dose of hcg (on a day when I actually stuck to the diet), which is like half of my calories and nutrition for the day.

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

jan 7.

191.0.  -3.2 overall
I am tired.  Had a productive day.  Even mopped the whole house.  But I am tired and don't really feel like writing so goodnight.

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

jan 6.

This is me writing a sentence because I said I would.  The end.

Monday, January 5, 2009

It's nearly midnight and I need to go to sleep but I promised to stick to this so I am.  This is easier than the diet- which wasn't hard before so I can't figure out what my problem suddenly is.

It was freezing outside today.  Even got more snow flurries.  Had family party and celebrated K's birthday.  Hard to believe he will be 2 next week.  W & P were super enthusiastic about their chores today.  We had a routine and, for the most part, stuck to it.  Will be nice if we can get a consistent routine.  That's my problem- consistency.

Sunday, January 4, 2009


192.2...up 1.8, which means total loss just 2.0 now

So obviously it caught up to me.  Today was no better.  I don't know what my deal is and why I can't seem to stick to the diet this time.  I have to, though, starting tomorrow for sure.  I have to stop it on Feb 1 for our trip so it's time to crack down.

Saturday, January 3, 2009

jan 3.

190.4 this morning.  That's -2.2 today and -3.8 overall.

Totally blew my diet today.  My friend A was in town with her family and she wanted to meet up for lunch.  So we ate at Rainforest Cafe.  Love their Chinese Chicken Salad.  Had a couple bites of their shared dessert because I felt silly not having any.  It was fun to see her.  So far this is the only time we've managed to do it without someone getting sick enough to be in the hospital.

Friday, January 2, 2009

jan 2.

192.6 this morning...down 1.6

Felt icky again this morning.  Stupid cheeseburger (ok, the small bowl of cereal I had probably didn't help either).  I'm going to stick to it today and see if that helps my stomach feel better.

Thursday, January 1, 2009

checking in.

Let's see how long this record-keeping lasts.  At least I know it's not just me who struggles with it.  I'll try to write at least a sentence or two each day this year.  Problem is that when it comes to writing, keeping it short & sweet has never been my strong point.

Woke up feeling icky and nauseous this morning.  It's come and gone.  I think it's from eating crap yesterday.  Planned to really stick to the diet starting today.  It went well until I was out shopping with P and starving.  We were obviously going to still be a while so I grabbed a burger and now I feel sick again.  Guess I'll have something to remember now when I get tempted.

Did 5 loads of laundry today.  A couple more days and I might actually get caught up.  Gets so old.  I feel like I can't get anything on track in the house unless laundry is on track and dishes are done.  Too bad I hate doing dishes and DH is so tired lately.  I hope we can figure out soon what is at the root of his problem.  He got exhausted tonight just trying to put K2 in his pajamas.

Started oral hcg drops...ordered online and mixed up myself.