Thursday, May 19, 2011
My name is Hala and I have an addiction to food. I use overeating as a means of making myself feel secure in my marriage. For example, I think to myself "If I don't feel good about how I look (or just plain don't feel good) then I feel more drawn to be with DH because I know he loves me and accepts me as I am.... or if I don't feel good about my body then I can 'hide' from being intimate- or I can use my being overweight as a 'justification' for a lack of sex life or lack of apparent interest from my spouse...thus it 'protects' me." Of course, these are faulty thought processes. I only hurt myself by making myself unhealthy and uncomfortable. I draw inward and become reclusive unless I consciously fight those urges. It limits my life and my involvement with my children. It doesn't show the proper love and respect for the beautiful gift of a body that God has given me. Instead it shows a lack of self-discipline & self-mastery and allows Satan to have the body he so deserves.